I love you.

The covers of my bed stifled lonely sobs,

“I can’t do this” I muttered into the heavy air.  I couldn’t decide if I was talking to myself or you... maybe somebody bigger still. 

My thoughts became a train of messy emotions bombarding each other in a composed mix of love and hate.  My heart was bound as if by a thick elastic band – restricted, I struggled to pull the oxygen from the air. 

“I don’t know what to do-“ I choked out the words; they lingered with my tired breathing “...if I can’t be with you...”

I rocked myself back and forth, child again, I attempted to calm my quaking body.  I dug my nails into flesh as I grasped for something within myself to hold onto.  Nothing, I scraped across my skin, leaving trails of creepers, the pain I could feel, but it wasn’t enough.  

Role reversal

You had a noose

About my neck,

Now you’re the one

That cowers

In the shame

Of sweet affection.

. L . O . V . E .

A dark growl of cloud rumbles across the sky

Rolling and tumbling
Curling and creeping

It teased its way through bright of day

Patterns and spirals as lightening crackles

Pitter patters of slamming droplets on

Window panes a- shaking with the thumping

Through the shaking ground – quaking with

Fear of another strike

From the strong beam and

Mumbles of volume through settling skies

You.

It’s night and it’s cold

But your solemn kisses

Could save my soul

Sweet addict

Breathe it in

Sweet smoke

Laugh and splutter

Doesn’t matter

Just keep going

Acquired taste

False love

Take a break

Pause your life

An easy drag

Shortens to

Solitude

You could just have

Heard the words

“Drink the water”

Fairytales

Calm and serene the music of the land played on softly – setting a yellow-green hue rhythm.  Magic.

“Slow down everyone,

You’re moving too fast.”

Gentle plucking of life’s strings, he was there – he played his music,

They sang their song;

“Slow down everyone,

You’re moving too fast.”

Touch of lips – whisperings of muttered belonging to this meadow and of him to her. 

“The possibilities are endless”

She said to him....

Drifting

Tears tumble,

Words mumble...

I don’t know what to say

You just seem so far away

The pasts old ways

And feelings of those days

That old sin

Was hidden within